fffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffuck

this isnt her, staying quiet and keeping certain thoughts in her mind aren't usual.

see, it can become impossible for her to even function correctly without all those wild curiosities going on in her mind, or all the opinions and things that make her who she is.

maybe though, just maybe once i begin dealing with situations like everyone else does, and the longer that I do it, the more apparent it will be that you fell in love with someone different.

i will work with you though

i am running out of options as to what i am doing.

how about this?

you come to me when you can know what you want to do, or how you would like me to handle certain things.

its never enough for anyone.

what hurts the most though is the fact that despite how often i try to manage certain things about either my thoughts, my emotions, anything...the more you realize maybe you fell in love with the wrong person?

i feel this way.

i dont want it to be true, i dont know what to think.

i wish you would talk to me.

i ask god every night to bring you back.

car ride

i remember it like it was yesterday.
yeah, i do remember all the things that went with seeing you for the first time.
i remember how you smiled, and i thought it was something very sweet and special because it livened up your entire face, and anyone who could see that smile, could also see a glipse of the happiness you felt. we can feel it.
i remember how i froze the first time right there in the doorway of english, at the very sight of you.

sometimes you know, its still like that.
sometimes you make me stop dead in my tracks, you take my breath away, and you still give me goosebumps, even when you simply hold my hand.

five months later were somewhere else.
but ill tell ya, when you hold my hand, i still get that. still, i feel every emotion, and i willl continue to fall in love with you relentlessly.


im not sure where we're going, im not sure how many sights we'll see along the way, and im not sure who we will bump into along the way. im not sure even where we last where a week ago.

still, ill be on the passengers side, waiting for our destination, and enjoying the ride up until you decide to let me out of the car.


and i hope you know that ill be beside you, im here.

we watch miracles happen every day.
we live this magic, and we are the magic.


my fear is someday you will wake up, your view on who i am will change, and all the love that continues to grow each day will only fade, and you will let go of all of what we have.

i disregaurd it now. i will continue disregaurding all negative thoughts, all my bad emotions i cant control, i will keep it down and away from you.

sorry...i know the music has been loud this car ride.

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